Aphantasia

It feels as though mental imagery is unregulated in a schizophrenic mind.

I close my eyes and imagine an apple with its stalk similar to a candle wick. It is lit up aflame and isn’t burning down; it stays the same throughout. Then my brain starts interrupting this exercise. It wants to drift off throughout, with light auditory voices coming into the emptiness that is a focused mind. I wonder what it is like to not have such an interactive mind’s eye, where the focus of everything is on the surrounding aspects of the actual mental imagery being focused on. This isn’t like dreams but actively sought images that scatter about in the mind without control or regulation.

What I have learned is that it makes you focus very well on things because you have to differentiate between what is real and what is not, even where you are imagining things of your own volition and not involuntarily because of psychosis.

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